SinCorleone

I honestly don't know what to type. I don't have much to say. Although, honestly I feel like most days on any given social media platform of any kind I feel like I am talking to myself. I am not all that good at drawing conversation from people. I am not all that skilled in connecting and "making friends." I don't have anything to give or exciting to ramble on about. It's all become one big monolog. Honestly, I am thinking about wiping this account clean and getting rid of all other social media things I have. I don't have the motivation to keep up with them. I don't have people that I connect with. I don't have any new material (for here especially) and I won't for a long time, if ever. 
It's all very blah and bland and I can't seem to get out of this gray area or slump. I don't even know what you could call it anymore, to be honest.
I think I am at the final countdown for a lot of things. 
All good things must come to an end though, I am afraid.

Julius

Well in the last several months my life has went to the dogs and back. The only highlights were that I saw VAMPS, Yoshiki with the Tokyo Philharmonic Orchestra, and also ONE OK ROCK. Other than that things have been quite miserable and I'm trying to get over some things and trying to get my life up and running again. I have also been thinking/ looking into Grad school and started talking with a few councillors over the phone and email. I am possible (most likely) moving in the next year or so down South. I have a lot of things up in the air in other words. Nothing special. No new pictures. Nothing terrible creative. 

Just...


~Julius

Besides being forgetful normally, I also thought I updated weeks ago....and I never did. Seems like typical me.
The concert was crazy. For bad and for good. I'd like to see them again, and glad they finally came to the United States. 
They were quite charming in person, no surprise. 
Honestly, I don't even feel like writing the details of that night. I think I am just getting really lazy lately. Even typing is becoming a chore. But, all in all, I'll be keeping an eye out for them and a few others and their touring schedules. 
Everyone deserves and hour and a half of magic from time to time.

Best,
Julius

April 29th needs to get here quicker. 
I can't believe I get to see them--meet them. 
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Seriously counting down the days. 

~Julius

Well, life has happened. I have been everywhere and nowhere at once. Life has been giving me ups and downs, more lows than highs. I am not sure what to do or where I am headed. Honestly, most days I feel dead inside. So cliche, I know. I guess I haven't been feeling super great mentally. I can't seemingly do anything I used to enjoy. I can't get my head out of my ass. I think I find solutions and then I back out so quickly and flake.

The only cool thing that happened recently was that I got to see DIR EN GREY live in Toronto recently. God, they were wonderful in life. Maybe I'll do an entry on that experience soon, while I have that time still fresh in my memory.

Nothing much has happened. I'm working nights and sleep during the day and have a hard time getting out of bed. Any aspirations I have had are out the window; it's disappointing.  I am at a loss on just about everything.

Sometimes, I wish there was someone who could give me a sign, a glimmer, anything to point me in a direction because, I can't do it  myself.

~Julius